In Vulnerability Lies Your Power

One of the most powerful things I’ve learned in my journey of self exploration, support, and elevation is from Brene Brown and that is that being vulnerable holds incredible power.

So, I want to tell you a piece of my origin story.

In 2011 I had my first baby and had to quit my first and last formal healthcare job with benefits because my salary wouldn’t cover the cost of childcare.

That was difficult to accept but okay because I’ve always wanted to be the one to raise my baby, not a daycare.  

The downside was in a turn of events my husband and I thought would be good for us, ended up landing us on welfare.  It necessitated me to spend HOURS on line at food banks and further hours in the kitchen preparing and canning food we couldn't afford to actually buy.

Not to mention the added time in line at our local grocery stores trying to use WIC checks while onlookers got increasingly frustrated at the wait in processing them and the clerks got increasingly scared that they would make a mistake and get written up or worse.

I was in a deep dark hole of despair, my friends only got calls of me crying or complaining, my clients (though amazing) were few and felt I was costly.  I felt exhausted, unworthy, and scared I’d lose what little I had.

Then I started reading, a lot. I started therapy. I started a yoga practice. I joined local business communities.I started to see the sky clearing just a little bit.

Then I decided I would commit to an unlimited contract at my yoga studio because I knew in my bones that I needed to really commit to it.  It felt SO good.

That’s when I signed my biggest client to date at nearly double the price point I’d ever received before. Every year since then I’ve come incredibly close to doubling my income.  Which means every year I’ve been able to serve my family and my clients at a higher level than the last.

I’m no longer scared I wouldn't measure up to people who make six and seven figures; I’ve worked with them for years now and loved every minute of it.

I’m no longer in despair or ashamed of my circumstances, I never should have been in the first place.  Public assistance is there for a reason!

I see the world differently, I run my business differently, I connect with people on a deeper level than I ever have before.

Would I like to have been able to skip much of that portion of my life and struggle in business? Emotionally, I still trigger into a yes.  But if I did, I wouldn’t be able to meet my clients on their very different levels and understand their struggles the way I do.  I wouldn’t have the insights I have that have given me the opportunity to up level in a way I never knew was possible. My mind wouldn’t be open in the way it is now and the amazing ideas and possibilities I see for myself and my client’s futures wouldn’t be there. 

So, when I calm my nervous system of the trigger of those memories and really think about it, no, I wouldn’t change that past.

After all, it lead me to you and you to me.  If you’ve made it this far and  found camaraderie, inspiration, or comfort  in my story; that’s reason enough for me to have endured until I learned how to begin to thrive.

Thank you for being on this journey with me <3

If my story resonated with you and you'd like to connect, please find me on IG: @HudsonValleyPeakPerformance 

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